Lucky Life

Overwhelmed and dealing healthily

Not much time for this one, as I am overwhelmed.  Just some thoughts:

I’ve got a lot on my plate.  It’s hard to “complain” because it’s all great stuff, but what’s overwhelming about it is I don’t want to let anyone down or overdo it and end up collapsing emotionally. 

I’m learning to talk to people and tell them when I’m overwhelmed instead of avoiding that for fear they will be disappointed in me and then dropping the ball and certainly disappointing them.  So, I’m addressing stuff, even though it’s really hard for me. 

I feel I’m being judged for some of the decisions I make.  Some of that may be guilt, but sometimes I’m genuinely suprised by people’s reactions to how I choose to spend my time and then I know I’m not making it up.  The decisions I speak of are the healthy ones.  I’ve got a lot of priorities and am just trying to figure out how to juggle them.  I’ve gone out of my way not to overbook myself so I don’t get stressed out, but recently I’ve found myself saying YES to more than I can handle.  Oops. 

So folks, please be patient.  I’m trying very hard and I may not get it right all the time.  Just know I love you and I WANT very badly to not have to sleep so I can obligate 100% of my time to other things.